I havent written anything in a while. It's finals week and I have lots of shit to do for school because I need to make up for doing nothing earlier in the semester..This weekend was pretty rough for me as well. I have been having problems in my personal life,I don't understand. I guess I never have. I don't know anymore what your intentions are and I don't know what I'm still waiting for. I have this memory of you that tells me you're perfect for me but I'm starting to hate the person I've been talking to lately.
I don't understand why you say so many things you don't mean. You tell me you love me. Then you tell me it might not be true. But you tell me you still care about me. Then you tell me you don't trust me.
You tell me you love the way I look at you.. .You tell me you love how crazy you are about me. You tell me I'm the only person you will ever want to be with.. You tell me you've never felt this way about a guy before. You tell me we are going to be together forever. You tell me we will never be apart.You tell me you love me.
than you tell me that you will never forget Our relationship ..our relationship is dead. I don't understand why not.
When we were together, you were happy. You knew how happy you were and you got scared that it would fall apart. You became scared of me hurting you. I saw you becoming uncomfortable. We would be talking and I could see in your eyes that you were happy. They would change focus, look over my shoulder, and your smile would disappear. You just remembered how bad it can get.I never was going to make it bad. You've made it far worse than I ever could have. I couldn't live with myself cheating on you.We had been together for numerous month before you started telling me you love me...today We broke up, remember, because the relationship was "too perfect". You didn't know how to handle a good relationship.We didn't have to do anything special to make it work. But to break a good relationship apart, you have to do everything. This is what you've done. Our good relationship fell apart because you couldn't resist. You couldn't trust that it would. You tried to make me happy,
We became just friends. We became what we weren't....You told me that nobody can see the future, that nobody knows what's in store. You told me we have to just go where life takes us.It kills me to keep doing this with you, to wait for you to understand.You know I loved you. You have no idea how much, though. I have never cared about a girl the way I care about you. I will always be there for you. I always have been. I hate seeing you upset and would do anything to never see you that way again.When you need to talk to someone, I'm there every time. I don't care about anybody else in the world when you have a problem. I would kill for you. I would die.. You told me last night you're happy. You don't want us to change.We are falling away from each other. I don't know what more I can do for you. I have given you my trust, my pride, my heart, everything. I've made so many sacrifices that now I have nothing. You haven't made one.But I know I will never be happier with anybody else.I love you. I love every second I spend with you. I know you feel the same way. I know youre scared of it. You need to understand that it's never a bad thing to love somebody.
I don't understand why you say so many things you don't mean. You tell me you love me. Then you tell me it might not be true. But you tell me you still care about me. Then you tell me you don't trust me.
You tell me you love the way I look at you.. .You tell me you love how crazy you are about me. You tell me I'm the only person you will ever want to be with.. You tell me you've never felt this way about a guy before. You tell me we are going to be together forever. You tell me we will never be apart.You tell me you love me.
than you tell me that you will never forget Our relationship ..our relationship is dead. I don't understand why not.
When we were together, you were happy. You knew how happy you were and you got scared that it would fall apart. You became scared of me hurting you. I saw you becoming uncomfortable. We would be talking and I could see in your eyes that you were happy. They would change focus, look over my shoulder, and your smile would disappear. You just remembered how bad it can get.I never was going to make it bad. You've made it far worse than I ever could have. I couldn't live with myself cheating on you.We had been together for numerous month before you started telling me you love me...today We broke up, remember, because the relationship was "too perfect". You didn't know how to handle a good relationship.We didn't have to do anything special to make it work. But to break a good relationship apart, you have to do everything. This is what you've done. Our good relationship fell apart because you couldn't resist. You couldn't trust that it would. You tried to make me happy,
We became just friends. We became what we weren't....You told me that nobody can see the future, that nobody knows what's in store. You told me we have to just go where life takes us.It kills me to keep doing this with you, to wait for you to understand.You know I loved you. You have no idea how much, though. I have never cared about a girl the way I care about you. I will always be there for you. I always have been. I hate seeing you upset and would do anything to never see you that way again.When you need to talk to someone, I'm there every time. I don't care about anybody else in the world when you have a problem. I would kill for you. I would die.. You told me last night you're happy. You don't want us to change.We are falling away from each other. I don't know what more I can do for you. I have given you my trust, my pride, my heart, everything. I've made so many sacrifices that now I have nothing. You haven't made one.But I know I will never be happier with anybody else.I love you. I love every second I spend with you. I know you feel the same way. I know youre scared of it. You need to understand that it's never a bad thing to love somebody.
